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**Kaylene Loss 10-2-08 As my husband went off to war I was proud. He’s going to serve our country. He really is going to do some good. It’s just hard to be away from him. But he’s going to go keep those Jews in check. I think that the real problem is that when he returns, if he returns that I won’t be the only woman in his life.

John Duttenhofer Oct. 6 Father Having this knowledge feels like a punishment. I wish that I didn't have to know. I wish that no one had to know. All I am able to do now is keep quiete, for the better. I'm greatful that I had a little more time that some of my fellow Jews did not. But time can not save me. **   **Oct. 12 Father ** **We can make it. If we group ourselfs and don't separate eventually the war will be over and we will be free again. There will be no more fences, no more ghettos. Even now the Nazis lose more and more power. We need a final blow. **  10-6-08** **My husband keeps writing me. He wrights me all the terrible stuff he has to do. He doesn’t like it but he pretends that he does. If the Nazi’s found out they would kill him along with the Jew’s. At first I was happy but now that I know what he really does we, I couldn’t take it. I decided not to tell him, he would find out when he got back, if he get’s back. He wrote me a letter every week telling me these awful stories about what he had done. All of his letters scared me. He told all the things that he had to do to the Jew’s and cripples. I kept writing him back telling him to keep the stories coming. I told him that I could take it, but I couldn’t. Inside I was begging myself to stop reading but I had to force my self to read them so my baby wouldn’t be alone. I wrote him back every week telling him that I still loved him, but how could I, I mean he killed people. **
 * Kaylene Loss

Nikki Reason 10-6-08 German soldier (section 1) We are taking action. Finally! We’re moving slowly, but thorough enough to ensure those filthy Jews stay in line. We can only expel foreign Jews now, but its wonderful. We are thakin that filth out into the forest, far, far away. And making them dig huge trenches. Then when they have finished we will bring them forward one by one and have them offer their necks, when they fall over dead into their graves, only then will we know that we can finally rid ourselves of this vermin. Three years have gone by. Three LONG years. Someone thinks that we, the superior Germans, will soon be overthrown. Oh if only they knew what they were getting into. HA! Those foolish Jews are ruled by delusion. We try to stay distant from those filthy people, but, we don’t want to anger them just yet. On the last day of their silly holiday, Passover, we arrested all the religious leaders. And prohibited all Jews from leaving their residences for three days, we forbade them from carrying gold, jewelry, or any other item of value, and we required them all to wear the yellow star. These laws we passed, are all punishable by death.

Nkki Reason 10-6-08 German Soldier (section 2)  <span style="color: rgb(124, 9, 9); font-family: 'Lucida Sans Unicode','Lucida Grande',sans-serif"><span style="color: rgb(53, 3, 3); font-family: 'Palatino Linotype','Book Antiqua',Palatino,serif">We put in place the ghettos today. We fenced off an entire neighborhood and required all the windows facing the outside to be boarded up, we don’t want to see that filth. The army is forcing out the Jews, one street a day. We told the president of the Jewish republic where we are carting them off to, but told him not to breathe a word of it to a single person in his midst. Else his life would end as soon as the words eked out of his mouth. I got to order the grime to their fatal carts this day. Away they went. We only allowed them a sack, full of their belongings, not that it will help them escape their fate. The hot sun was beating down my back, as sweat dripped off my brow, I took a mouthful of water and saw the longing in their eyes, I smiled and took another hearty chug. I looked out at the wasteland of a ghetto, the last street to leave, and smiled as I filled my lungs with air. This will be a great day, I yelled for the last street. And smiled at the thought of another day. We have shipped them all to the small ghetto. only a few streets, and completely unguarded. but we all know, that by the time the delusional scum get into the small ghetto, they think that they are safe, and that nothing will happen to them. So there's no need to guard it, no one leaves. and if they do, its not hard to find them again. They are so predictable in their actions, its funny, we laugh about it all the time.

Kaylene Loss 10-12-08  The last letter he wrote me made me want to kill myself. I think that he was brain washed or something. He told me that they make the Jews offer their necks after digging their own graves. He also told me that the Germans, the master race, will be overthrown. He told me that they are ridding the world of filth. He mind has done a complete 360 degree turn around. He told me that they rob the Jews of ALL their valuables, so the Jews can’t run unless they have friends high up in the food chain. If the Jews refuse to give up their valuables then the Nazis’ kill them. This evil man that wrote me is not the man I married. I think that I should pack the children and get the hell out of dodge. The only safe place to go to is America. At first he was pretending, but now he is truly a Nazi. Maddie Allen 10-2-08 Elie (Section 1) I just wanted to learn about Kabbalah. Although father didn’t want me to when I met Moshie I just had to do it. In the middle of my teaching Moshie got transported out. When he came back he was telling all of these ridiculous stories. No one would believe him and although he was the one teaching me I couldn’t even believe his stories. When news came that Germany would be defeated hope came to all of the Jews. The war might finally be over! Soon the Germans came in and started living in our houses but it wasn’t too big of a deal…….that was until the started arresting our religious leaders. Why would they do that? I don’t understand. I really started to worry when we had to stay in our houses under threat of death and forced to wear yellow stars. But I still have hope that everything will be ok.

Maddie Allen 10-7-08 Elie (Section 2) Everything got surrounded by barbed wire and we were forced in to two ghettos. All windows facing the street were covered. We couldn’t see anything. Soon the news came that we had to leave. Everything was crazy. I haven’t ever seen the community so stressed out. Everyone was burying their jewelry and packing as much as they could into their backpacks. Everyone was awake at four am clinging to the hope that we wouldn’t have to leave. So when the soldiers started yelling “All Jews outside!” our hope was sliding. We stood outside all day; I have never felt such heat in my life! The worst part was that we could not leave our ranks so we couldn’t get water. At a time like this it would is hard to believe that we were joyful but when it was time to leave that is exactly how we were feeling. My saving grace was knowing that we are going to be the last to leave.

Maddie Allen 10-9-08 Elie (Section 3) One thing that I never thought that I would have to see was my father crying. So when I saw that tear today, it broke my heart. But what really hurts me is that fact that we could have left the ghetto. We could have gotten away from all of this hate and torture. But there was no way that I was going to leave my father behind. I needed to stay with my family. In a few days the day of standing in the heat began again.

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Finally, Saturday came. The last day of deporting those insane vermin from the small ghetto, and now my shift takes me to the camps. I get to help with the elimination, my favorite part. They all brought their bags to the station, and we are packing them into little rail cars, eighty to a car. We packed them like sardines, because in all honesty, they aren’t any better than the puny stinky fish. There isn’t even a bathroom in there, they get to dispose of themselves in the corners just like animals, HA! We had to make a pit stop in Kaschau, nearly over the border, boy I loved the faces on those Jews when they saw where they were headed, Germany. We raided the cars at the border; took all watches, jewelry and any other valuable items the Jews may have smuggled in. Anyone who refuses will be shot and killed. We warned them that if even one person from their car tried to escape, they would all be shot. Boy I love when they try to run, a soldier could always use more target practice. When we finally got to Auschwitz we allowed two men to get water for everyone, they need to at least be alive when we throw them into the inferno. One officer told these men a hilarious story about what was to come, the families wouldn’t be separated he told them, funny. And the small minded men believed him! And they went on to tell everyone else. HA! We moved on from Auschwitz around eleven that night. that’s when the real fun began. We got to jump into the cars and get those flee bags out. My lungs filled with the dingy flesh filled air, I wrung my hands around my mallet and jumped inside, hitting anything I could with brute force. And shouting for everyone to leave all things behind. How sad they looked, “oh just wait little Jews,” I was saying in my head, “the worst is yet to come.” We sent the girls one way and the men another. That was only the first of their miseries. We had the inmates interrogate the newcomers, and then, in ranks of five, Dr. Mengele weeded through the old and young. All in the middle were to be spared the fires, for that night. However we made sure to walk them though the pits, so they could witness the horror first hand, and so we could break their spirits even more, make it easy to force them to obey. Their will was broken after witnessing the flesh eat away under the flames licking at the unmoving bodies. Next we made them strip, only letting them keep their belts and shoes, as is procedure. They were taken to the barber, and we shaved every hair on their puny bodies. Around five we expelled them from their barrak and told them to run. And sure enough, like dogs, they ran. They ran all they wan to the other barrak, through the showers, and you know you never know which one is the shower and which one isn’t… but this time it was only hot water that spilled across their backs. We made them run again, oh what fun that is. We issued them pants jackets and shirts. Then made them run back to their bunks where an officer met them, the told them to work, or be sent to the crematory, it was their choice. As it always is, but they didn’t get that no matter what, eventually they’ll get sent to the crematory. We only tell them this so that we can get a good dose of work out of them before they’re too spent and their bodies too decrepit. We asked fro the specialists in certain fields to come forward, they would be sent right away to a factory. And then we shipped them off to Auschwitz. Its appearance was better than Birkenau. We ran them through the showers again, and issued them new clothes. Once in the confines of the barrak again, the man in charge of them gave the usual “don’t give up” speech. And soon after they fell asleep, two to a bunk, blissfully unaware of the horrors just outside their door. The next day we issued tattoos. And they went through proper procedure for roll call as well as meals. One day though, some idiot Jew came through looking for someone, and I had to get him to his rank so as not to disturb the peace of roll call. A few weeks passed and I finally got appointed to take over for the softy polish man in charge of the barraks. And I’m ready to let my fury out… hahaha….

John Duttenhofer Father Oct 20 We keep moving around, my legs are very tired. I try my best to keep up with my son and the others, but I keep getting beat by the soldiers. I just can't seem to march like they want me to. I did try but I'm a peaceful Jewish man, not a marcher. God is with me, but not my poor old legs. Faith will save us. ( Ps: This father sucks! )

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This evening I could hear the Jews singing their hideous Hasidic songs. I swear my ears were bleeding. Its almost sad to look at those people and think that all the other people in their family are dead… almost. But then I remember that they’re Jews and that they aren’t fit for our society and they have no place in this world. We took a group out of Auschwitz a while ago, my favorite part of that day was the girls that passed our procession. A pretty blonde one caught my eye, and I showed her how powerful I was, by puffing out my chest, and yelling at a man who beat one of the slime in front of us. I wouldn’t want that beauty to think we were vicious in any way. She left her car for a while and walked with us, I got a lovely kiss out of that beauty, and a promise of a later return to the camp under the cover of night, hehehe… I hope my wife doesn’t mind, but she stopped writing me weeks ago, and a man in these conditions has to do whatever he can to get some lovin from a female. The dentist was fired today, he was stealing from us Nazis! He took some of the gold teeth he was told to extract (in any way possible) from the filth! We threw his ungrateful mass into the fires and burned him up along with the women. He was no better than them. I also hear that Idek was fooling around with that girl again in the factory, and some Jewish boy saw! Oh how I laughed when I heard this news! How I WISH I had been there, to see the look on poor Ideks face, we ALL take women. This is a widely known fact in the business. But only the dumb ones get caught though, and only the extremely stupid ones get caught by a filthy JEW! Oh god, and the beating of the brat who stood there and watched them, would have been bloody and wonderfully beautiful. But oh well, I can only hope to be around when the next idiot is caught, and witness the glory of a beating. Kaylene Loss 10-26-08  My husband moved us to the camp. Its terrible, I cant believe he thought that I would like it better. I don’t even know him any more. He’s gone to a ghetto to round the Jews up and bring them here. Here it smells, the Jews have no meat on their bones. They get fed only three times a week and the Nazi’s work them to death. The other wives are completely caught up in being snobs. They think it is the coolest thing in the world. I don’t, it disgusts me. But the wife of Jonny has started feeding the Jews. I think that I’m going to join her. But if we get caught then we are both dead. Kaylene Loss 10-30-08 This will be my 8th trip out into the world of feeding the hungry and starving. Tonight we go to the 37th block. I don’t know who’s in there or what they might do. My prayer is that their not so scared of the Nazi’s they wont tell. We have to be extra careful because my husband patrols this block. I need to help my fellow people escape from this terrible death camp.

Nikki Reason 10-30-08 Soldier This Sunday the scum was given the right to work or rest. And it was split about even, half working half resting their lazy bums in the barracks. That day, the air raid alarm went off, we had to drop everything and line up. And there were two huge caldrons of soup in the road. I could see all that filth eyeing it greedily… but we all knew no one dared to leave rank. And that the moment they did they would be shot dead. But some strange little man decided to try. All the SS officers saw it happen, and we saw every Jew watch in awe as well. We let the game go on for a while, until he finally lifted his head into the pot, and we let fire on his sorry soul. And just before he threw his head into the pot of steaming food, he let an incredible scream through his teeth. A sorry soul indeed. That scum he was. Just after that outbreak, the ground heaved and threw from under our feet. The air raid had begun. It lasted only an hour, but the air was tainted with fire and bomb smoke. Not the comforting smell of the crematorium but an unfamiliar scent that was unwelcome here in this place of riding the world of filth. When all order was restored. We presented the Jews with the Gallows. The SS soldiers set it up right in the middle of the scamp, where all could see. We did our first hanging of many that day, oh the joy of starting a trend.. But the first one did something that, regrettably all the ones after did as well. As soon as we flew the rope around his scrawny neck, he shouted long live liberty and his curse on Germany. How disappointing, that’s why we hung him, he deserved it. Haha, yes he did. We made the scum of the camp parade past his hanging body and look at his face. They knew not to disobey. Oh yes they knew. We allowed the bottom dwellers a celebration of sorts, for their holidays. Many are losing hope, you can tell, when you look into their eyes. Later on, we did inspections. But commanding officer said they weren’t good enough so we had to redo them. And regrettably some of the prisoners who were in before got out…. Winter hit hard, and ha! We just made the scum endure it. But word is out that the Russians are coming to liberate the camp. All the SS decided to evacuate the camp and move to another. At nightfall, we left. We made them run. And anyone who stopped running, was to be shot. Or even just let to be trampled to death by the ones that are running. I saw that happen a few times the image is so amazing, not one you could render of your own will, you have to see it happen in life. Haha… we made them run all night, 42 miles. And then we allowed them for sleep, but not much. The next morning we arrived at Gleiwitz. And boy was that a sight! The men were pushing so hard to get into the barracks, that they were trampling people in their haste to be comfy. The fitly Jews, ahh, always good for entertainment. The next day we took them to a field where a single cattle car was to take them away from us, thank god, what a bag group, I hear that our new rotation will be the best yet. However I hear stories of that group… it started with 100 pigs on the car, and only 12 remained to tell their tails. There was an air raid as soon as they were dropped off at Buchenwald, killing even more. The prisoners were ordered to climb the trees to avoid it… and then, on april 10th they were liberated. God how that upsets me, the pigs are out in the world again, and that’s not how it should be… no its not.

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